drowning

After 3 or more weeks of interrupted sleep, caused by a bit of anxiety, some self reflection as well as the excitement of music/skating/adventures, I'm about to crash. This morning I actually forgot what time Ivy was supposed to start kinder and then we were half an hour late. No big deal the teacher reassured me, but I knew it was a sign that I need  to take better care of myself. Start eating better again, and try and get some decent sleep. I don't know how to do that, maybe listen to rainforest music at bed time, who knows? Or maybe I just need to sort my shit out.

This was really not a fun shoot, for anyone who's thinking of trying it. My head is now swimming with bath water, my eyes hurt, my ears are splashy and I have a ton of water up my nose that, for some reason, smells like beetroot.

pretty noose

Diamond rope silver chain 

Pretty noose sells pretty pain 

And I don't like what you got me hanging from

(Pretty Noose, Soundgarden)

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Music lyrics have always sucker punched me, but I find it amazing that even after loving a song for nearly 2 decades (holy hell, I'm getting old!) I can still find new things to admire in a song, still be inspired and still be shocked by the meanings of words as lyrics/poetry. And finding new meaning depending on my mood.

I seem to have picked up my selfies project from a little while ago. I'll see if I can maintain some kind of enthusiasm for it, it's been a long time since I've felt vaguely interested in picking up my camera. Sometimes it's easier to create an image than think of the right words I think.

*** disclaimer for parentals and anyone else freaking the fuck out that I have a noose around my neck: this is a composite of about 4 or 5 images and some crafty photoshop work. Yes there was a rope around my neck but it wasn't tight so chill. :-p